My art and process has certainly changed and evolved over the past 20 years. Historically I would make stylized feminine portraits often inspired by artists like Picasso and Modigliani. I didn’t begin approaching abstract painting until about 10 years ago.
At that time, the paintings and the creative process would cause me a certain amount of anxiety as I never knew where the paintings would land, but I also had this deep drive to “figure out” how to make a “successful” abstract composition. I was always trying desperately to understand the sort of puzzle that is created once you put pen to paper and paint to canvas. But the process was often more difficult than enjoyable.
Then in February of 2018, I enrolled in a three-day intensive workshop led by German artist Bernd Haussmann. Bernd discussed how one approaches the act of creating and painting, combining meditation and mark making. This workshop completely shifted my process to new ways of working without planning, without designing, without composing. The paintings became quick expressions of feeling and reflections or recordings of what became for me a sacred act of making marks. I began closing my eyes while standing at the canvas, focused on my breathing and began a meditation that would work itself out through the application of paint and drawing materials. The paintings became completely intuitive and I found a new freeness in painting that I had never experienced in my life. This is how I am currently approaching my painting, as raw and listening and open to the paintings that want and need to paint themselves. I find I am simply a conduit for the process, which I experience as most beautiful and enlightening.